Wednesday, September 27, 2006
3:46 AM

redflag, redflag. chet!

right after school, met up myMookies n her boyfriend at orchard. well, supposedly. but in the end, saw them in the same train i went into earlier on. sucha great coincidence, ya. *winks* headed to far east plaza since she wanna grab that red-white sailor bag. its cute! we roamed around far east plaza while waiting for myKudut to reach town area. window shopped here n there, bamm! there are quite a few blouse n shirts that truly makes me kinda go goo-goo gaga. oohmygawd! its been sucha long time i didnt go for a shopping spree, you know. *sigh* its ok, maybe after hari raya, once ive got to collect green packets, i'll go for a shopping spree. ive gotta buy new jeans. really. let me tell you, all of my jeans turn out to be not tight at all, n worse of all, keeps on 'going down' n can visibly see my panties n boxers. soo looose, already! i guess i gotta gain 1-2kg. but! i dont want myself to get buncit, lei.. bluerghh!

once myKudut reached far east plaza, the four of us headed down to paradiz centre. or isit peace centre? or isit the same? chet! honestly, ive never been to that shopping mall before. well, looks kinda boring to me. like, an old shopping mall, i think. basically, we went there cause myMookies wanted to play time crisis II at the arcade. i didnt play anything there, while myKudut played this soccer game thingy. all i did was to watch him play. after that, we dont know where should we head to next. all our minds were empty. no resort, we went to bugis. oohmydamn! its been like, every weekdays ive been to n fro of that bugis since my school is located somewhere there.

chilled at starbucks. ok, honestly, the four of us were so bored. luckily, theres this thai performance near to our seating place. well, at least theres some entertainment, right guys? *giggles* =)



heres our camwhoring section.

Buncit&Boya

sucha keeewt couple. =)

Mookies&Bonkerz


may our friendship stays strong

JohnnyKudut&JennyGendut


i love euu!!

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Monday, September 25, 2006
4:16 AM

the chalet has been cancelled last minute. well, edmund informed us on the friday morning. n guess what? i brought my heavy bag filled with the stuffs thats needed for the chalet. actually, edmund cancelled the night before, but he didnt have any of our contacts to inform us about the cancellation. anyways, its cancelled cause not alot of people will be attending the chalet. i was sooo the sad. really. you can just see the looks on my face.

right after school, went to va va voom cafe, basically, a vietnamese restaurant. its edmunds treat. hmm, i ordered deep fried chicken chop with rice. the food is extremely delicious. thanks alot, lecturer! we're so addicted to the food n even our stomachs were very furious like, i want food i want food right now!, till we forgot to snap some pictures. so, i was bumped after that, didnt know where should i headed to next. luckily yvonne decided to accompany me till i met fazly at far east plaza. yvonne n i went to chill at somerset's tcc, had marble n oreo cheesecake, plus the oreo mocha frappe. enjoyed every single bite n gulps. before we're off to meet up fazly, i filled up an applicant form for a part time job. well, i need to work. i dont want to cling on to my dearest mummy for money. ive used up alot of her money, i tell you.

we walked slowly towards far east plaza. cuzzyACAP called me at that point of time n didnt recognise his voice, since he used his member's handphone to get through me. acap, your voice way far different, you know. dah macam abang-abang, la. ceh, macam paham. *giggles* met fazly, so the three of us took our own sweet time, went to the borders. oh well, eating my 2nd lunch. again! for 2 straight days ive been having my lunch twice! this time round, at fish n co. n yeah, not forgetting aeez n his friend, named fir. right? in the end, yvonne n myself decided not to eat at fish n co cause we were so full. very very. we only ordered a homongous glass of fruity drink. hmm, i forgot whats the name of it. its.. mermaid something. yvonne, help me recall can? myKudut knew i was already full, yet he told me to eat a small amount of food from his seafood dish. ohmygawd, b! you're making me fatter n fatter! you already had your 6 pack, while me, like what u said, 6 in one pack. babatz, i must say! chet!

aeez, thanks for all the treats. =))))

later then, five of us went to cineleasure just to play at the arcade. yvonne n me played this dont know what game. spot the difference between two particular pixies. it was fun, actually. *lol* hey, its my first try, ok? heeren was the next pit stop. roamed around, as usual. then, aeez n fir went back home.

so left with myKudut n yvonne. honestly, we dont know where to go. all gone bonkerz. *chuckles* in the end, myKudut n me went to watch Pulse at cineleasure while yvonne went back home, cause, she doesnt like to watch ghost story. its been 4 times ive been goin to the movies this week. but! the movie, Pulse, was boring. well, not that boring actually, its just, doesnt make sense, especially the ending part. so you guys out there, better NOT to catch up on this movie, ya. dont waste your money. trust me.

after the movie, chilled for a while at starbucks, thinking where should we go. lastly, met up aeez n fir, again!, this time round, at raima restaurant at kembangan. so, this is where myBestfriend always hangs out with his friends. thinking i could spot him, but theres not sight of him at all. four hours later, we went to aeez crib. oooohmyyydamnnn! aeez is a very lucky guy. has his own bungalow. well, yeah, lives alone. but then, his family lives just next to his house. each of them has their own bungalow. wooow! i guess ive fallen for aeez bros car, mercedes v4. thats what youu call, hot. mummy, next year buy for me that merc can? terplantingg! *lol*

at aeez crib, we just chilled, watched scary movie 4 n the benchwarmers, played around with one out of four cats that aeez owns. ok, gotta admit, im in love with fred!! hes so the fat, so the furry n so the manja! just look at him. kan kan kan? =)

the next day, on the way home, myKudut n i camwhored in the bus. the photogenics, mah. *winks* reached home at about 7.30pm. a great day indeed. myKudut, thanks for spending time with me. truly appreciate it. =) *hugs n kisses*

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Thursday, September 21, 2006
11:10 PM

once im done with the exercises given by edmund by the adobe photoshop in school plus the assignments, n discussed about tomorrows chalet, i had lunch with yvonne, chee kin n zhou bin at a hawker centre near sim lim square. the place was so warm n chee kin perspired alot. lunky not me. *giggles* i had a bowl of mee soto cost only $2. alot, you know! yet cheap, right? *thumbs up*

once we're done, i went staright to somerset taking a straight bus to that location. met fazly n his cousin, aeez, at cathaCineleasure. oohmy! aeez was my ex classmate back in bmc academy last year. what a small world. so aeez, welcome back! so long didnt see you. =) so, we went to sushi tei at takashimaya for lunch. oohmygawd! i had to eat my lunch for the second round. well, fasting month is just around the corner, so i shall have a big feast then.  

tsktsk.. my stomachs were totally bloated already. chet! fazly, suker you ekh i makin gendut! you must eat alot cause you're soooo the skinny, leii. my johnny kudut! ahax! next stop, wisma atria. window shopping at flash n splash since that fazly wanted to check out any cool flip flops. but in the end, he's still in love with the brasilian slippers from the new urban male shop at theCathay. hmm.. did i get the right shop? correct me if im wrong, my johnny kudut.. =S

then, walked back to cineleasure cause we wanted to watch john tucker must die! well, aeez gave me that pity face with a 'pleeaaseee' hand sign to watch movie with them, so, ok la. i tagged along too. then, aeez girlfriend joined us too. well, hello lizzie! you're so pretty n adorable! n bamm, a great show indeed. you guys gotta watch it, too! *winks* i was freezing in the movie theatre ealier on. thanks, kudut! *hugss*

right after that, had dinner at coffee club. again!! gulping down the food. but then, its nice. stomachs too bloated but cant resist, la. its so the tempting, i tell you. burrrrrrrrrp!! excuse me.. *chuckles*

chilled till about 8pm, still, at the coffee club. looks like lizzie is as sotong as me. lizzie, gimme a high 5! we're the bonkerz.. =) overall, a tiring day but i had fun. must enjoy before the fasting month hits me, mah. enjoy till you drop, la babe...

tomorrows chalet. havent even packed up. doesnt even think of what i should bring since im sleeping over. better do it soon. im just cluless. dont know what to bring! help...

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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
10:45 PM

todays class ended quite late n cause of this, fazly had to wait for me almost 45 minutes in front of my school. trulySORRY, fazly! =S

ok, so after that, we went to plaza singapura by taking the mrt. the weather is scorchingly hot, man! as usual, i complained, walaney! today so hot sehhh... *giggles* we had our lunch at pastamania. so long you know i didnt satisfy my tastebuds with the yummilicious pastas. i forgot to order something, one of my favourites - banana dessert pizza. chet! nevermind, next time we order it n eat together-gether, ok? =))) 

once we're full, we headed to theCathay n bought to tickets for theHost. basically, a korean movie about a particular monster. bought 2 tickets for the price of one, horh.. *winks* after we had the the tickets with us, we're still early. n we went bonkerzzz! what do you expect? we've gotta wait for another one n a half hour, mind you! running out of ideas, we've decided to give our buttocks a sauna, just sitting on a red comfy sofa n watched the trailers. one of the upcoming movies struck our attention. power!! its called, theCohevant , premieres 2nd november. guess what? its on cuzzyNADGIGs 20th birthday. so we've planned to watch it with cuzzyNADGIG along with his girl.

since we're so bored watching the rest of the trailers, here it goes. snap!!

tick tock, tick tock, tick tock! at last its time for the movie. before that, bought nachoz with lotza cheese n a coke drink. we were sooo the jakun when we walked in the grand cathay, room 1. woooow, i tell you. n i went, soo the biiiig! ahax! its very beautiful. before the movie starts, i grabbed the opportunity to snap some pictures. well, you know me.. chet! it soo cold n both of us went to the toilet together right on the middle of the movie. cant tahan!! well, johnny kudut went twice, while jenny gendut, only once.. heehee..

fazly: a great day indeed. right, my johnny kudut? hahahah! anyways, i just checked on the internet, theres saw III coming right up, 30th november. you like saw II, kan? so gotta catch saw III, mah.. im sure its gonna be fun seeing all those precious games done by the super clever jigsaw. i wanna play a game with you... *chuckles*

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Sunday, September 17, 2006
4:08 AM

yesterday was a fun n great day. went to sentosa with my cuzzies n some of their friends tagged us too. met cuzzySTARDOM at the pasir ris mrt control station at 10am n we proceeded right to the harbourfront centre. the clock ticks at 11.15am n we've reached there. unfortunately, the guys werent! they're late. oohyeah.. sucha gentlemen, horh, you guys. ahax! so cuzzySTARDOM n myself went to have our brunch at macdonalds. once we're done, we met up the guys at harbourfront interchange. we went there by van, not bus, ok? we all special, mah. *winks*

dropped at pahlawan beach. waah.. its so refreshing. its been a year plus i didnt visit sentosa n soak up in the sun. so this is the time for me to release all the whatever stress thats been with me for quite some time. once we've settled down a place to chill, some played taidee. its been sucha long time i didnt play that game. karat already! basically, cuzzySTARDOM n i didnt soak ourselves in the ocean. the reason? cuzzySTARDOM is sick, so she should avoid it. since shes not soaking, i myself not soaking lorh. sehati sejiwa. =) we just chilled and catch things up together.

these are the two animals that caught my eyes earlier on. beautiful parrots eating a banana while another, is a peacock which kinda scrolling around the bush. so the cute, leii..

cuzzyNADGIG, im glad ive spilled things out with you. sorry that im too overly sensitive. please dont feel guilty, alright. whats past has passed. no matter what, you're still my babyboy, ok? *chuckles*

at around 4.45pm, cuzzyNADGIG n i sent off cuzzySTARDOM at the so called yellow line as she's meeting up her boyfriend soon. dear, your boyfriend should've tagged us along, leiii. teehee... its ok. after hari raya, we hit off sentosa again, ya. n yeah, before i update this blog, i chatted for awhile with cuzzyDIDI. he said that he doesnt like sentosa n dont wish to go there. chet! i dont care, he must follow us on our next trip. eh wait, why dont we go to the zoo? then can visit my bestfriends- the orang utans n monkeys! how's that? i love animals, horh.. =))

dah, sshhht! get back, get back.after sending cuzzySTARDOM at the yellow line, it started to rain. cuzzyNADGIG n me were kinda drenched while we went back to the rest of the guys. tsk.. now im the only girl in the gang. soo the awkward, leii... so, while waiting for the rain to stop, we camwhored. hey, i didnt know that guys love to take pictures too, you know. they simply snap, snap n snap! right, guys? yes, they're fun to be with. soo the funny, making non stop jokes n all i can do is laugh. i felt so me. i admitted, im back to my oldself. thankgod!  =D

the time showed 6.30pm. we migrated to this dont know what place, where theres a coffeebean. chilled there for awhile. again, lotsa laughters. i loike... *giggles* macam-macam arh korang nie..

hmm... i guess about an hour later, we decided to go back to our very own island, by taking the free shuttle bus to harbourfront interchange. aik! isnt sentosa an island too? n its part of the singapore right? bonkerz arh mas nie! ahax! once we've reached there, we ate our dinner at the hawker centre. i dont wanna have my dinner cause im not hungry at all. but, fazly asked me to share his mutton chop with him. ok. thankyou, fazly! you're making me buncit, you know. bluerghhh... once these stomachs were bloated, we took the mrt to get back home.

guys, thanks for the fun. your jokes are simply irresistable. the laughters n smiles,  i loike. we'll hit the sontosa again after hari raya, ok? this time, ive gotta soak up myself in the ocean wih you guys! just now i felt so tempting to join you guys playing in the water, you know. cuzzySTARDOM, make sure you dont fall sick on the next sentosa trip, ya. =) *lol*

love you all!! thanks for changing me back to my oldself, the happy go lucky me! im glad...

fazly, i'll meet you up this tuesday for lunch, ya. i wanna eat at pastamania, can? hmm.. on the second thought, bugis cafe. what do you think? n yeah, you're a nice guy, afterall,despite with your golden monkey hair. dye it to black, leii. better! ahax!

now its almost 4am. ive gotta catch up on my sleep. im having my driving practical lesson at 10am!

chalo!

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Friday, September 15, 2006
5:30 PM

just a pathetically short update. im feeling much better than yesterday, but still, in no mood, though.

yesterday we already started with the photoshop software. well, its kinda tough since its my first time exploring it. but, its fun.

heres me n my new partner, yvonne, while we explored the photoshop together-gether.

earlier on, went to school with yvonne. edmund calls us the breakfast girls cause we always eat the curry o's from old chang kee together-gether in class.

this is our new creation to the ''R2 must die!'' exercise. it is tough, lotsa layers to be used. truly confusing. but we loike it...

after school, had lunch with edmund, chee kin, zhou bin n yvonne, at an indonesians ayam penyet prima ria restaurant. its located just opposite of our school. it was edmunds treat. thankyou, lecturer!!

right now, im still thinking. thinking hard, wether tomorrow, should i follow my cousins to the sentosa trip or not. maybe i'll go. maybe not. shall i? shant i? confused. sucha headache.

even if i go, just hope i'll enjoy myself n have fun. hoping everythings fine.




oohsucks!

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1:40 AM

time: 12.45am. n still, stuck infront of the computer screen. eyes are abit heavy but my mind just cant stop thinking. what wrong with me? does it has to do with me? does all the problems lie on me?

later edmund wants to see the drafts on our AIDS project. guess what? im not done with it. not even start abit. i dont have any fresh ideas to start with. i cant think. my minds been filled with other stuffs, my own problems. n im so stressed up. i know its stupid to think too much about it. but this is how i am. im very serious in anything. i dont play around in those thick bushes unlike some people.

i thought you're my loved one, the one that i can depend on. but i guess, not anymore now. its all been shattered. youve hurt me badly, dont you know that? you should know that im still hurt after my breaking up with my ex, but it seems that you're making this healing process slower n weaker. the scarred has become deeper though. in my life right now, i just need smiles n laughters. n of course, sincerity n honesty.

i know that jokes are meant to be jokes. but theres a limit too, mind you. but am i being too overly sensitive? even if i am, people out there should understand me due to my rough past. you dont wanna know what ive gone through. its hurtful enough. n ive had enough!

some people think jokes are fun. pranks are great. sometimes, somehow, for me, its not. not at all. you may think its funny but you dont know that youve hurt someones feelings. being a joker is great n people loves you. but remember, you might not know that your jokes may hurt peoples feelings.

youve known me for sucha very long time. n i bet you know me inside out. but now, how come youve hurt me? i thought you knew my weaknesses. i guess im wrong. damn wrong. but deep in my heart, i wanna get things between us as per normal. yes i do cause i still need you to be part of my life. but in the first place, you didnt even apologise to me. maybe because you're not aware that you've hurt me.

furthermore, im getting stressed up with my projects n stuffs. now, you're making my situation n feelings much more worse.

its better for me to get isolated in an island, all alone by myself. i guess being alone is better off rather than being with people n you keep on getting hurt. like i told you, ive had enough. do i need to repeat over n over again? oohmygawd. i just cant stand it anymore. can someone please pass me over a knife n let me slice whatever meat thats in me? or, kill me instead. kill me. kill me!!

nonetheless, im glad to have my family n some others to give me encouragements to move on with my so called farking life. at the very least, they do give me a second chance of hope. so that i can still live in this world. i guess without them, i wouldve been dead! thankyou so soo much.




youve HURT me
youve MISJUDGED me
youve MISUNDERSTOOD me
& youve made me CRY to sleep

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
10:11 PM

todays class has been cancelled last mintue. yeah, while i was on my way to school, in the mrt to be exact, katerina called to informed about the cancellation cause edmund was totally sick n needs to go to the hospital. shocked. what happen to you, edmund? yesterday you seemed very very fine. i hope you're better n we'll see you this thursday. get well soon...

squidish hit me right after that. bumped. oh well, but its ok. im used to it. ahax! mas soo squidish. mas mas... so i met up yvonne n meizhen at macdonalds n then proceeded to burger king for our breakfast. later then, chee kin n zhou bing joined us. then, we shared ideas on our current project on AIDS. once our brain has become dead, we decided to go to sim lim square to check out the adobe photoshop cs2 software. forget it, its $499. meizhen will let me borrows her photoshop software soon.

after accompanying yvonne along with meizhen, for the black jeans hunting at OG, i walked down to city hall with meizhen. met up juddin, while meizhen met up with her friend. ok, juddin n me ate our lunch at long johns silver at marina square. i bought 3 mini clips from mini toons. i desperately need those due to my mangkuk fringe! i dont loike hate my fringe. so the mangkuk, you know.. then, roamed around marina for awhile while we're thinking where should we headed to. how about playing pool? yes yes indeed, thats a great idea, juddin. *winks* so we walked down back to city hall n went to lucky plaza. he always win the game. no fair! teehee... my aiming not that good, right? nevermind, practice makes perrrrfect.

this is the aftermath after our pool game. ahax!

next stop, mc cafe. we had the double chocolate ice blended. hmm.. the taste buey tahan, la. we chilled together n chit chat all the way n listening to the songs booming from my mp3. while blogging right now, im sending juddin some songs via msn. all power power, kan? *giggles* thanks to my broXP for all the great songs.

an hour later, went to far east plaza just to buy pocket tissues from watsons. very cheap, leh.. one big packet contains 32 pocket tissues cost only $1.95. a great catch, though. these pocket tissues is a must for me to bring wherever i go, cause ive such an oily face n, i kinda need to wipe it off like every half an hour? sooo the kilaaat! bluerghh... since ive to be home before 7pm, we gotta get ur butts off from these crowded town.

he dropped me at a shop nearby my house since ive gotta buy a new set of colour pencils.

took the last pic before saying buai-buai. forget about my pathetic hair, n thanks to the helmet. chet!

no worries, mum. im still in one piece. remember, he rode 10km/hr. *lol* but i took a peek, he rode 110km/hr to be exact!

juddin, thanks for spending time with me. it is a fun day today. lots of laughters! i loike... hmm, next week we'll meet up again, together with my BESTfriend, broXP n kc, ya. n you should get to know my BESTfriend n broXP n kc too. i die-die wanna watch john tucker must die, premiering next thursday. well, you should have fun before you're off to that pathetic pulau tekong on 6th october. you shouldve continued your studies at polytechnic first before serving your ns, you know.. =( sobx sobx =(

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Monday, September 11, 2006
2:56 PM

just had lunch together with my lovely mum. burrrrrrrp! pardon me. you wont wanna hear how bad my burping sound is, worse than a guys, i tell you. simply ask my closed ones. ahax! why am i talking about my burping? chet! ok, lets get back. i was scared to inform my mum about my class chalet, because for the past 3 years, whenever my friends had chalets n i asked permission from my mum wether i could go for their chalets, she strictly dont allow me to. seriously. honestly, my parents are totally strict, i dont have much freedom like other teenagers, you know. =(

mas: mum, next friday n saturday im having a chalet at pasir ris costa sands with my classmates.
mum: hey! its already the fasting month right?
mas: no, la. the chalet ends a day before the fasting month.
mum: ouh, ok ok. 2 nights?
mas: 1 night only, sayang.
mum: ok, la. can.
mas: what!?? serious!? without any beggings n cryings?
mum: yes. i have trust in you so better dont waste it.
mas: thank you thank you thank you!! cayang mummy!
[hugged her like a teddy bear n kissed her many2 times on her cheek]
=) =) =)

im soo the happy, you know. yes yes, after i broke up with my ex, seems that my mum has a great trust in me. even now, she knows who im making friends with, especially guys. waaah, now my mummy power la. *thumbs up* let me say this out loud with happiness, ive my freedom back! woohoo! im a very happy flower!!! teehee...

no worries, mum. i wont make you lose trust in me. no secrets between us, ok? *muackss*

the chalet has been confirmed; 22/09 till 23/09 @ pasir ris costa sands. checks in at 1430 hours. so looks like right after school, we'll go straight to the chalet. the main reason edmunds having this chalet is, hes not teaching us anymore starting from mid of october. he still works under a company n some kinda big projects are coming up. all of us moaned in class when he told us this shockingly sad info. *sigh* all of us really gonna miss you. you're a great lecturer, we have alot of fun together, not strict at all, etc. we truly wonder whos our new lecturer. is she strict? is she as great n fun as you? -_-

i am sad. very. edmund, i considered you as part of my life, n soon, you'll be leaving footprints on this road of mine. well, i just hope that we'll meet up with the rest of your so called funny-creative-idea students every weekends in the futures time.




can someone own up who topups my prepaid for me? firstly, i truly appreciate any of you who topups for me. thankyou! before i went to my lala land yesterday, i found out that my prepaid is already sufficient with $21.11. aikkk! i thought its left with $1.11. looks like this someone topups my prepaid using his/her atm card. this someone, please own up. i wanna know who you are. pretty please, pleassssee.. *bend on my knees begging desperately*

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Sunday, September 10, 2006
1:55 AM

nadgig: oi mas, where are you?
mas: im at the bus stop la. where are you?
nadgig: you turn behind..
mas: turn behind?
[i turned behind, searching for him but to no avail]
mas:your head, la. where got?
nadgig: spot a guy with a bike.
mas: what! thats you? with a bike!!??
nadgig: ya. come here, la.

thats a conversation between me n my cuzzyNADGIG via phone. in the morning, we've agreed to meet up each other at my bus stop n we'll head off to our cuzzySTARDOMs crib for kenduri. of course, my thinking was, taking a bus. in the first place, he didnt even inform me that he already had a bike. i cursed n swear him like hell once i met him with his greeny kr bike, pantat kau la, babyboy! sejak bila kau ada motor? tak blang aku! siottt kau, cibye. aku nie kan sedara rapat kau. pantat! aku kan babygirl kau! pantat... teehee... he told me its just a surprise n didnt wanna inform people here n there. sorry, my dear cuzzy. you know me, im just shocked n curious. nah... still i love you!

n ooh yeah, dont get it wrong, we're cousins. its just that he calls me babygirl n i call him babyboy. mum told me when we're still little kiddos, nadgig never fails to bully me especially biting my hands! so baaad. but in the end, we turned out to be very close. =)

ok, ok. while hes riding n im the pillion, my mouth cant get it shut down. still cursing him, pantat kau, pantat kau, pantat kau... well, for about the first two minutes. of course, feeling so nervous n i kept on melatar like, eehh pantat, eehh mak kau, eehh jatuh. still, for the next two minutes or so. yes yes indeed, im the melatar queen. bluerghh... after that, i could get myself shut once im ok with the speed n stuffs.

babyboy, my leg kena the exhaust very pain seh. so reddish, you know! chet!

pssst! juddin, your babe katrina, i mean, your bike, same as my cuzzys. =)

ooh, what a cacat face i have!! lets get back with the story. reached cuzzySTARDOMs crib, started off with the kenduri. once its done, everybody ate for their dinner together, except cuzzySTARDOM n me. chill out at her room n catch things up since its been exactly one month we didnt meet up. before cuzzyNADGIG n his brother, cuzzyACAP went off to johore, of course, the normal routine, snap pictures together-gether, fomal n informal. *giggles*

its sucha a good time to spend with my cousins, my loved ones. too bad, cuzzyDIDI couldnt make it due to his hectic work schedule, hoping hes there with us. next week, we'll be having an outing together to sentosa; cousins day out! cuzzies, lets pump it up n have fun before the fasting month hits us.

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Thursday, September 07, 2006
5:49 PM

yesterday, i had my first practical lesson with my private instructor. just call him steven, aites. ok, hes very friendly, so the funny n of course, a great instructor. waited for me under my block at 10am sharp n went to pasir ris parks carpark to learn my driving there. just learn how to move on, the clutch, biting point n all those stuffs. i thought i fumbled alot in this first lesson, but i was totally wrong. steven gave a thumbs up for me since i didnt make any mistakes, no jerking n no stall of engine. woohoo!
the next lesson will be on next wednesday at 8am. looking so forward to it!

then, at night, my parents n i went to tampines for an hour just to find an mp3 for me. i told them i need it badly. you know, im miss fussy. basically, in everything! yes, i am, to be honest. the main case here is that, for example, when i was in the mrt, listening to the songs from my handphones mp3, theres hustling n bustling by the movements of the mrt, n the most irritating part is, "next stop, tampines. next stop, tanah merah," n so on. or even, "if you see any suspicious blah3, please blah bleh bloh.". well, not only in this language, even in those chinese n tamils. my mind went yareypurenggek... bluerghh! excuse me, i wanna listen to the songs without any disturbance, puh-leassse. i so hate it, you know.

so, this is my newly addictive mp3. well, as you can see, my mp3 is not like that ipod nor creative brands of which people go crazily googoo gaga. i just bought an aji-Ichiban arikatok brand. haaikkk! it has a built-in lithium polymer reachargeable battery, full graphic colour lcd, 512mb, etc.

thank you so much, daddy. i truly appreciate it. love you so sooo much. mmmmuaccckks! what can i say, i soo the pampered mah. am i that spoilt? if im really spoilt, i'll prove to people that i can still achieve my goals n in whatever i want for my future. but i love to get pampered even when im already 19 years old. chet!

so earlier on, juddin gave me a wake up call, right on the spot, at 0745am sharp. thanks juddin! anyways, all the best for your your soccer finals in the evening later on. jia you, jia you! may your team wins... =)

people have been asking me why do i smile without showing my teeth. ayo.. my teeth got something wrong, la. you know mak jongang? yes, thats me! well, i started to smile without showing teeth for the past 2 months. so this means, before that, i did smile showing off my teeth.

so heres one that i captured before im off to school just now, smiling n showing off my jongang teeth. hows that? *puke!*

at last, i felt so heavenly. plug in my mp3, no more those blah bleh bloh, tang ting tong announcements while sitting happily on an mrt seat. im a happy bird now. hmm.. happy flower, la k? sounds better.

in school, had the presentation. needs to re do our magazine campaign by next monday. then, played this musical chair just for the sake of finding our partner for our new team. in the end, we played the draw lots instead. ive got the adorable yvonne as my partner till the next two months. *winks* i love your chubby cheeks! let me cubit your pipi next time, ok? kc is not feeling well. i hope she has a good rest today n not forgetting to eat her medicines. no worries, kc. even if you're sick, you still look pretty. =D

reached home, i took a good look on my cutey mutey tortoises. the three of them are chilling so closely! grandmother bought a big tank for you, yet you guys squeezed together like theres no other choices like that. besides, they're so adorable, larh.. never fail to give them a kiss on their small 'lips' before i go to sleep. mind you, they're my little ones ok. to be specific, my children, you know.

ooh well, im living my life to the fullest right now. enjoying it from bits to pieces even though theres some rough rides for me to go through. everything happens for a reason. karma i suppose.



be a solution to a problem, NOT a problem to a solution. - a quote by mr tiger tay, principal of inspiration design school.

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
5:45 PM

let me update you on some stuffs. lots of pictures here. read on..

friday, 1st september.
since the whole class didnt have anything to do, edmund told us off to have our brunch together near our school. "really arh? eat brunch now? during school hours?", i asked edmund. he replied happily, "yes, mas. why are you so shocked?". ok, we walked down to city hall to settle down at raffles shopping centre, the foodcourt. basically, the girls decided to chew down on the delicious-looking western food.

heres my chicken cutlet meal, before n after. well, ok, not much difference there. i know, i know. shut up. i dont eat alot. furthermore, its not tasty at all. like i told you, im miss fussy when it comes to food. chet!

we camwhored while eating our lunch though. *giggles*

heres the fruits that edmund bought for us. theres variety of fruits for us to indulge the heavenly taste fruits.

once our stomachs were bloated, we took a 10 minute walk back to our school to grab our bags n went home. on our way, kc n me took pictures together. oohyeah, we love snapping pictures. right, gorgeous? *winks*

well, after that, the girls went to take neoprints together. bluergh... its been sucha long time i didnt take neoprints, though. so the kaku, you know...

daddy-k-3rd to edmund.. HAPPY TEACHERS DAY! thanks for all the knowledge you taught us. we're so happy to have a great lecturer like you. well, do teach us more n share your experiences with us so we can be the best art directors in the future. *chuckles* hey, dont forget on our sentosa outing next time like what chee kin suggested, ya..


yesterday, 4th september.
right after school, kc n me went to meet up my bro at bugis junction, near the so called pathetic fountain. i dont like that fountain, mind you. so the irritating n why the hell must it be there in the first place.

come, lets start with the history lesson of me n broXP now. well, we knew each other since early months of 2005, via internet. we clicked so well. n yes, whenever ive problems, i always turn to him cause you know why? he give good advises to me that i can depend on. he knows everything from a-z. right bro? teehee...

its our first meet up after all this a year n a half. so the lama, right? yes indeed.

actually, our plan was to go to east coast beach since im the one suggested it but in the end, its been cancelled as kc needs to attend something by 6pm. so, we continue with our next plan - plainly roam around bugis.

while waiting for my BESTfriend to reach bugis, the three of us had our lunch at madonalds. its bros treat. kc n me would like to thank you very very much! then, went to the last floor of bugis junction to watch some movie trailers till my BESTfriend came. ayo! so late, you know we all waited for you... so next time you must treat us starbucks, ok?? *lol*

so we checked out any cool things at bugis street. luckily its not that packed even though its the one week school holidays. i wanted to grab that vintage dress, la! but too bad, i dont have enough money lah dey.. chet! i found out theres a bugis cafe on the 2nd floor. oohmydamn! aku ni tinggal kat zaman batu kape seh.. *blushed* thought of trying their food one day. looks yummilicious! we're concerned abt my BESTfriend, asking him over n over again wether he's hungry n wanted to eat his late lunch. lastly, we went to the kfc, well, to eat again! alwi, you see, we all sacrifice our bloated stomachs to eat again just for the sake of you, you know! =D

we dragged our fully loaded stomachs to get back to bugis junction since my BESTfriend wanted to go to the 3rd floor.  hmm.. nothing much, actually. 3 new designs of flipflops by ripples. soo the nice, you know. got butterfly prints on them! again, no money. tsktsk...

then, i saw my lovable closefriend, aidah. we ran towards each other n hugged each others like teddy bears. awwww.... macam cerita hindustan gituk.. *lol* i miss her so much. i know, its been months we didnt get to meet up, but we're close at heart. a great bonding indeed. i love her, i love her... muackies to you, my dear.

before saying goodbye, we took pictures together. i miss her so. you dont believe me? this picture tells it all - i still hugged her while taking a snap, ok?

honestly, the four of us dont know where to go. totally clueless. so bro suggested, walked down to city hall n by the time, its already 5pm n its time for kc to attend church which starts at 6pm. passed by the national library. n guess what? snap pictures together-gether. =)

ooops! sorry if its not that clear or what. i need to resize them till this size so that they could fit into this precious bloggy of mine. you can check them out at my friendster, then. thank you.

reached raffles shopping centre n its time for kc to go off. *sigh* wishing she could stay a little bit longer. ok, then, before that, something happened n i was soooo the happy, you know. i was smiling from one end to another. awww.. so touching you know. seriously. im not joking, ok. my heart melts even though it has got NOTHING to do with me. ok, ok, i admit im insane. i dont wish to elaborate on what made me happy. its our secret! *lol*

left with my BESTfriend n me since bro too, went home with kc. the two of us checked out adidas, ralph lauren, calvin klein, esprit n polo jeans stores. wah.. my BESTfriend get to own these brands, you see. so good... =P since theres no other place to go, we walked back to the national library n took bus number 12 for us to get home.  

its sucha great day i had with them. well honestly, i did enjoyed so much on that day, get to spend time with my closed ones, though. thank you so much, my loved ones. =)

broXP, its nice meeting you after this a year n a half. may our friendship stays on this way. we will. we can.

but then, deep down in me, theres something that triggered me so badly. arian, you're right. i just have to let go of the past. if im feeling worse, looks like im on the wrong path. n yes, i managed to let it go freely. n now my heart feels so much lighter. thank you! we'll meet up some other weekends, ok?



earlier on, in school, edmund taught us on photography. its kinda bored, my eyes were so sleepy n heavy. almost on the verge to snore. *lol* but i got the hang of it n bombarded edmund with questions on what i dont understand. thanks for tolerating me, edmund! teehee... better to ask questions rather than keeping quiet n dont understand anything, right?

after school, went home straight. so lethargic. but something captured my heavy eyes. a cutey cat resting under the shades of a tree.

see, very cute right? i love cats. perhaps, im an animal lover, lehh. ive been wanting to go to the zoo n the last time i went was like, last april? i wanna go again n meet up ah meng.. ah meng, i miss u, la. u miss me or not? *chuckles*

*sigh* how i wished i was like this cat.. so relaxed. so freely. free from problems. free from everything...

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Saturday, September 02, 2006
3:28 PM

now, im back to square one. but its much more worse. sorrow. grieve. anything that associates with anger n sad perfectly describes me now. forever. thought of changing to be a better person, somehow, it has stopped. im confused. my minds are whirling. maybe im not worth it, in any way. my weaknesses; i cant seem to change it. its been in my blood flowing every single  milli-second. its easy to be said than done. correct! thank you.

i guess im trapped. im lost. and soon, i may be gone. i dont have any directions in my life right now. but no one seems to care. yeah, NO one. but then again, this is what you call life - one day you're so happy n out of the blue, you fall n it hurts you so much, so deeply. im hurtful enough. extremely.

due to my weaknesses, people have been using me over n over again. now, i superrr dont care about it. just let it be then. maybe im some kinda toy thats really fun to play out with. go ahead, have fun!

i believed theres no such thing as revenge in my dictionary. but as time passes by, it starts to develop bit by bit. why? you ask me, i ask who? i myself do not know the real answer to this. i know, this is not so me. i admit, ive changed. no more goody-goody me, specially to the ones thats not supposed to be part of my life. but for the people whom i cherish, no worries, im still the same me. i guess. not sure. ergggggghhhhhh!

ok, let me get things straight here. if you're good towards me, i'll be so sooo good to you. very good. but if you're treating me badly, i'll treat you worse. i've gotta be firm now, no more soft hearted n no no to giving in too much to others. in this world, people change n so do i. i'll change for the better. still, im not perfect, though.

this is me n forever it shall be
go ahead n play around with me
but dont you ever get fooled
cause one day, i might get back at you!

a silentKILLER i must say. so dont judge me by my flaws. for all i care, you just dont know me well; the real me. you dont know what ive gone through for the past 19 years. you always see me with smiles n laughters, just like a happy-go-lucky idiota. thats just the surface. but do you see whats on the inside? do you know that ive suffered so much deep down in my heart? this deep yet painful scar will never heal. theres no medicine to it. even if there is, lets just considered it as lucky, i guess. but like what i said, as if any of you out there really cares...

we're drifting apart n i can feel it. im not sucha dumbo as what you might think. you're playing games with me, fine. i wanna play a game with you, too. i play my very own way till you're stuck in every corner of a cubicle. let the games begin...

the devil within arises.

if you wanna step into my life be n part of me, im warning you: please dont hurt me cause ive suffered alot. ive had enough with it. if you hurt me, i'll hurt you double. so, dont make things worse.*sigh* somehow, i really need someone to guide me through with my bumpy n rough life. to the right path. yeah, YOU. its you ive been talking about. you, fix me up!

i wanna runaway
never say goodbye
i wanna know the truth
instead of wondering why
i wanna know the answers
no more lies
i wanna shut the door
n open up my mind

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