3:38 AM i already slept at about 12am. but then, i woke up like around half hour ago. i can't bring myself to sleep actually. i was sooo nervous for my TP later at 10am. sheesh... all the best to me, aye.
yesterday evening, met up cuzzyNadgig at United Square. we just chilled at Starbucks with his colleagues, had dinner together & of course, crapping. by 8.50pm, both of us rode to Raffles City Shopping Centre to grab our Fried Mars Bar. besides, cuzzyNadgig needs to come over to Gloria Jeans to get back his IC.
at last, i get to fill my stomach with Fried Mars Bar & satisfy my tastebuds. ohh, sucha heaven.. hurhurhurr!! but, i still want more can~
im totally addicted to it, lahhh.
yesterday evening, met up cuzzyNadgig at United Square. we just chilled at Starbucks with his colleagues, had dinner together & of course, crapping. by 8.50pm, both of us rode to Raffles City Shopping Centre to grab our Fried Mars Bar. besides, cuzzyNadgig needs to come over to Gloria Jeans to get back his IC.
at last, i get to fill my stomach with Fried Mars Bar & satisfy my tastebuds. ohh, sucha heaven.. hurhurhurr!! but, i still want more can~
im totally addicted to it, lahhh.
thanks for being there for me, cuzzyNadgig.
<3
cuzzyStardom, i wanna have a date with you. i miss you so much!
brudder, you should've waited for us just now & had Fried Mars Bar together, you see. but it's okay, lahh. don't want you to wait long-long for us. pity you. later i dropped by serangoon & i pass you chocolate Hersheys since you scored full marks for you accounts. keep up the good job! proud of ya...
i guess i better get myself to sleep. really have to. die-die must sleep!! ipan, since you're not gonna sleep, you become my alarm clock, ok. wake me up at 6.30am sharp!!
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2:51 AM (I Hate) Everything About You by 3 Days Grace
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
.....
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me
I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
.....
this is my current addiction. credits to Stef for introducing me to this song. i'm really addicted to it. it's so meaningful even though there's drums&bass&guitars banging loudly. i love it...
& yar, Ipan, i know you tagged on my brudder's blog. it must be you, i know. you like the design, i know! it's nice playing those pathetic poems with you in order for us to use our brains & crack them up.
here's one of the poem i debate from him:
cish bedebah hatiku berdegap degup,
bunyi sana sini berdentam dentum,
seperti apa yang kamu cakapkan itu,
sama sekali umpama lubang hidung ahmad nisfu.
ok, i know i know. it's lame. but that's the best that i can think of to rhyme it up with his poem before this.
brudder,
i hope you like the blogskin i did for you. thanks for listening to my problems. no worries, i'll be here for you & you can pour out all of your problems to me. remember, it's not good to keep everything to yourself. stay strong & i believe in you, cause i know, you're not a faggot! hohoho! me, as a sister to you, i'll do whatever i can to make you feel better. i might not be there for you physically, but mentally & morally. & thanks for the little shout out you made for me in your entry. truly appreciate it.
you're also addicted to this song, i know. glad you like it.
cheers~!
=)
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2:59 AM yesterday had dinner with Zikky over at TM's Macdonald's. we met up very late actually as he was caught up with some stuffs. yes yes indeed, we met up at 9.30pm. after that, we took bus to get our butts off to Pasir Ris since he's gotta book in at 11.30pm. so little time, so many things to talk about.
glad that you like the Famous Amos brownie i bought for you. i told you it's mouth watering. next week, i'm gonna stuff your mouth with my all time favourite Fried Mars Bar. it's superlicious, i tell you.
glad that you like the Famous Amos brownie i bought for you. i told you it's mouth watering. next week, i'm gonna stuff your mouth with my all time favourite Fried Mars Bar. it's superlicious, i tell you.
.buddies.
=-)
earlier on, in the MSN, after i've sorta feeling a little bit better, i helped whatever i can for Ipan. & he likes this idea of print screen. here's the results of us doing it. testing 1 2 3...
mine.
Ipan's.
this is his namecard for his current project, using Macromedia Freehand MX.
kewl uh... keep up the good work!
the thoughts & feelings of hack-care-dont-care kinda thing.
whatever... =-
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12:22 AM me & my niece taken last thursday, before im off to cuzzyNadgigs crib.
simply adore this girl.
she's chubby & adorable, yet demanding!
yesterday, i've submitted one of my projects, which is the design folder. phew! well, one whole night i didn't sleep just to finish this up. okay, i lied. all i did was, listened to the songs played from Windows Media Player & stared at the computer screen blankly. i was kinda down at that point of time. so, eeyea...
credits to Ipan for helping me out 'half-half' with this design.
thanks so much, my dear friend!
i've been having driving lesson everyday for the past week due to my TP this coming Wednesday. scaary maary, lah... & cause of my driving lesson, i couldn't join my family for lunch later, over at Grand Hyatt Hotel. grrrrr!! = (
its Hey Sugar on 31st January this Wednesday at MOS.
wanna join??
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2:47 AM the bottomline is, i've hurt your feelings too.
i accepted your apologies. & you accepted mine.
there's always room for us to improve.
we'll go through this together.
we just gotta have faith.
& so.....
i accepted your apologies. & you accepted mine.
there's always room for us to improve.
we'll go through this together.
we just gotta have faith.
& so.....
we know we love each other,
& we need one another,
we'll go through this together,
will hold on to each other.
whatever you do, there's a limit.
even in this so called blogging world.
& i've realised my mistakes.
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10:12 PM yesterday evening, cuzzyNadgig fetched me & went to Boon Lay, met up his gf, Yana. i almost fell asleep on his bike while on our way to Boon Lay. then the 3 of us had our dinner at Pizza Hut. after that, roamed around Jurong Point since Yana wanted to buy some clothes & accessories.
i was supposed not to eat any oily & spicy food for a week due to my stomach flu which is quite bad. even no milk & worse of all, chocolates. but yesterday, i really langgar all of them. aiyer.. don't care, lahh. i even got myself a chocolate fudge from Mcdonald's, you see. can't tahan anymore. gotta satisfy my needs. hohoho!!
after which, we went back to Yana's house & watched soccer, Singapore vs Malaysia, together with Yana's mum & sister. it's a draw afterall. pathetic, i know...
by 10pm, Yana gotta go to work, so, we sent her to the bus stop & accompanied her till her shuttle bus came. then, cuzzyNadgig sent me home.
it's so sweet seeing both cuzzyNadgig & Yana together; sucha blissful couple. & i'm truly happy for them. thanks for the great company, the great smiles & laughters, perhaps, thanks for everything.
"why your face sooo pale sia, mas. don't stress up yourself, please. just hold on a little while & everything will be fine. trust me", cuzzyNadgig said to me.
he showered me with hugs throughout the day. truly much appreciated, though. thanks alot, cuzzyNadgig. you should be lucky to have a really understanding gf. i'm gonna make her mine in one of the days next week & go shopping! *winks*
i was supposed not to eat any oily & spicy food for a week due to my stomach flu which is quite bad. even no milk & worse of all, chocolates. but yesterday, i really langgar all of them. aiyer.. don't care, lahh. i even got myself a chocolate fudge from Mcdonald's, you see. can't tahan anymore. gotta satisfy my needs. hohoho!!
after which, we went back to Yana's house & watched soccer, Singapore vs Malaysia, together with Yana's mum & sister. it's a draw afterall. pathetic, i know...
by 10pm, Yana gotta go to work, so, we sent her to the bus stop & accompanied her till her shuttle bus came. then, cuzzyNadgig sent me home.
it's so sweet seeing both cuzzyNadgig & Yana together; sucha blissful couple. & i'm truly happy for them. thanks for the great company, the great smiles & laughters, perhaps, thanks for everything.
"why your face sooo pale sia, mas. don't stress up yourself, please. just hold on a little while & everything will be fine. trust me", cuzzyNadgig said to me.
he showered me with hugs throughout the day. truly much appreciated, though. thanks alot, cuzzyNadgig. you should be lucky to have a really understanding gf. i'm gonna make her mine in one of the days next week & go shopping! *winks*
Yana & cuzzyNadgig at Pizza Hut.
sungguh tak glamour, i know.
snapshot, mahhh... hohoho!
thanks for everything, guys...
remember, next wednesday kita semua naik, horh. same goes to cuzzyStardom. you know, i know.. i superrr can't wait, lahh! *grins*
i had driving lesson earlier on. practiced on the circuit for 2 hours. kinda fun actually. hohoho! nowadays, i'm having driving lessons almost everyday because my TP is next wednesday. scaaary maaary, lahh!
today is mum's 59th birthday. i'm on a tight budget so, i bought for her some kacang-kacang & pistachios for her. pathetic, i know. but, it's the thought that counts, right. she simply loves to munch, lah. i love you so much, mummy...
furthermore, i'm saving money for my parents big day this Sunday; their 40th anniversary.
tomorrow, i need to go to school in the afternoon to pass up my project. after that, will be meeting up cuzzyNadgig n we'll hit East Coast Park. i'm gonna drag him to eat at the food centre there. eh, i don't know the name. alahhh.. makanan dia yang semua sedap-sedap tu, got satay all, lahh.. ya, that one.
its true afterall
sorry for the misunderstanding
me & u.
i'll hold on
& everythings gonna be fine soon
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1:35 AM yesterday, i really had a good night sleep. like, really. lemme count... i slept for 13 freaking hours, hokayy!! what do you expect? it's been almost 3 weeks i didn't have enough sleep, you know. so, eeyea. now is my time to really sental tidur.
i had driving lesson at 6.30pm. then my driving instructor cancelled it at the very last minute. grrrrr!!
supposedly to have a date with Fydah.
cuzzyNadgig asked me out.
Liana asked me out.
Zikky asked me out.
see, i rejected these 4 people just because of my driving lesson. pathetic, i know. chet! the first 3 already had their own plans. so left with the last one, Zikky. hohoho!!
i met Zikky at Tampines since he wanted to alter his shirt nearby. while waiting, we had dinner over at Long John Silver since i'm craving for it. the food is oily, & i was supposed to avoid oily & spicy food for the mean time due to my stomach flu. ayo, don't care lah. langgar jek la... thanks for the treat, army boy!
later then, we roamed around Tampines Mall, hopped from one shop to another. suddenly, i felt nauseous. totally. in my mind, "please don't vomit, please don't! i soo hate to vomit!". he bought me a mentos to chew on so i would feel better.
we went to receive his altered shirt & headed off to Temasek Polytechnic for the Jam & Hop event. once we reached there, the guard asked for our student ID. *slaps forehead* i didn't bring mine, lahhh! sucha sotong head... oh well.
anyways, we camwhored in the bus while on our way to Temasek Polytechnic.
i had driving lesson at 6.30pm. then my driving instructor cancelled it at the very last minute. grrrrr!!
supposedly to have a date with Fydah.
cuzzyNadgig asked me out.
Liana asked me out.
Zikky asked me out.
see, i rejected these 4 people just because of my driving lesson. pathetic, i know. chet! the first 3 already had their own plans. so left with the last one, Zikky. hohoho!!
i met Zikky at Tampines since he wanted to alter his shirt nearby. while waiting, we had dinner over at Long John Silver since i'm craving for it. the food is oily, & i was supposed to avoid oily & spicy food for the mean time due to my stomach flu. ayo, don't care lah. langgar jek la... thanks for the treat, army boy!
later then, we roamed around Tampines Mall, hopped from one shop to another. suddenly, i felt nauseous. totally. in my mind, "please don't vomit, please don't! i soo hate to vomit!". he bought me a mentos to chew on so i would feel better.
we went to receive his altered shirt & headed off to Temasek Polytechnic for the Jam & Hop event. once we reached there, the guard asked for our student ID. *slaps forehead* i didn't bring mine, lahhh! sucha sotong head... oh well.
anyways, we camwhored in the bus while on our way to Temasek Polytechnic.
he chose this black & white mode so he won't look dark.
what only! you're not dark, okayyy.
what only! you're not dark, okayyy.
i told you, you're not dark la, instructor...
walking back to the bus stop, thinking where should we go. pikir punya pikir punya pikir... at last, we've decided to chill at Pasir Ris Beach. we had a great talking session, played truth
cheers to his N71 phone.
reason: uses it for us to camwhore since my M3Vi is useless when it comes to night mode.
we took off at 10.40pm since he needs to book in at the SAF ferry teminal by 11pm. he sent me back first via cab despite the rushing of time he's facing. excuse me? i can just walk home you still wanna send me...
thanks for everything, army boy!!
ok ok, ada pangkat singkit.. aye aye, instructor!
oh well... =D
cuzzyStardom, thanks for accompanying me last friday while i was sooo down even though you were sick. *hugs&kisses*
meizhen, thanks for the shout out you wrote for me in you blog. *hughug*
with the support from my lovely cuzzies, gfs & my other friends, i will stay strong.
thanks so much, guys!
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7:07 PM a second entry for today.
officially time off....
you asked for it but still wanna treat me as your gf.
then what's the point asking for a time off??
guys will be guys.
i just couldn't understand them.
you've made a deep scar in my heart.
thanks so much...
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5:28 AM its almost 5am & i'm still not in bed. another one more project left for me to finish it up.
later at 10am, it's the presentation for the end of module 1. i've no faith in myself. i think i'm gonna fail. or maybe i passed, just passed. cukup makan.
but anyways, all the best to me...
yesterday, i had diarrhoea. & a very very bad nauseous. i can't stand on my feet for too long or else i felt like puking. yeah, i didn't attend school yesterday. *sigh* so in the afternoon i went to visit my family doctor. he told me that i had stomach flu. he even said that by staring at my pale-looking face, he knew that im stressed up. really bad. i was given some prescriptions from him, & i was told to have a really goody-good rest cause my body is so darn weak. in other words...
no oily food.
no milk.
& worse of all, NO CHOCOLATES!
ohmygod. i can die without eating chocolates within a few days. ok, bedek.. i love chocolates so much & i've to give it up for this upcoming 2 weeks. yet, my craving for Fried Mars Bar hasn't been fulfilled yet. i miss Fried Mars Bar....
i've lost 2 freaking kilos & mum keeps on nagging at me on how cengkung i am. i can't swallow food as per normal; no appetite.
i vomitted in the evening once. before that, there were a couple of times i felt like vommiting, but i held it down. cause you know what? i hate vomitting!! i'm willing to have diarrhoea for a month rather than vomitting within a day. like, totally.
i was given 2 days MC. but i really gotta go to school later on. it's really important. i guess i'm not sleeping the whole night. well, i am; forcing my weak mind & body to finish up these 3 projects. i'm giving my best shot to finish all of them.
i cried upon hearing the bf's voice over the phone earlier on. thanks for the encouragement, b... I.L.U.
brokedown thrice yesterday.
i'm totally stressed up.
& i'm in a big mess.
haywired!
b, i miss you terribly...
kudut, ohhh kudut..!! gendut rindu u, lahhhhh
later at 10am, it's the presentation for the end of module 1. i've no faith in myself. i think i'm gonna fail. or maybe i passed, just passed. cukup makan.
but anyways, all the best to me...
yesterday, i had diarrhoea. & a very very bad nauseous. i can't stand on my feet for too long or else i felt like puking. yeah, i didn't attend school yesterday. *sigh* so in the afternoon i went to visit my family doctor. he told me that i had stomach flu. he even said that by staring at my pale-looking face, he knew that im stressed up. really bad. i was given some prescriptions from him, & i was told to have a really goody-good rest cause my body is so darn weak. in other words...
no oily food.
no milk.
& worse of all, NO CHOCOLATES!
ohmygod. i can die without eating chocolates within a few days. ok, bedek.. i love chocolates so much & i've to give it up for this upcoming 2 weeks. yet, my craving for Fried Mars Bar hasn't been fulfilled yet. i miss Fried Mars Bar....
i've lost 2 freaking kilos & mum keeps on nagging at me on how cengkung i am. i can't swallow food as per normal; no appetite.
i vomitted in the evening once. before that, there were a couple of times i felt like vommiting, but i held it down. cause you know what? i hate vomitting!! i'm willing to have diarrhoea for a month rather than vomitting within a day. like, totally.
i was given 2 days MC. but i really gotta go to school later on. it's really important. i guess i'm not sleeping the whole night. well, i am; forcing my weak mind & body to finish up these 3 projects. i'm giving my best shot to finish all of them.
i cried upon hearing the bf's voice over the phone earlier on. thanks for the encouragement, b... I.L.U.
brokedown thrice yesterday.
i'm totally stressed up.
& i'm in a big mess.
haywired!
b, i miss you terribly...
kudut, ohhh kudut..!! gendut rindu u, lahhhhh
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3:43 AM time check: 3.43am.
i simply can't bring myself to sleep. alot of things in my mind right now.
& another thing, i've been squirting shits in the toilet bowl again & again for the past few hours. a fever is included.
i feel soooooooooo faraway from you.
i simply can't bring myself to sleep. alot of things in my mind right now.
& another thing, i've been squirting shits in the toilet bowl again & again for the past few hours. a fever is included.
i feel soooooooooo faraway from you.
..........
......
..
this is bad, i know. *sigh*
this is bad, i know. *sigh*
show me some love. REAL love.
sincerely.
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11:16 PM you have been nagging at me eversince yesterday, for i do not know what's the reason. those words from you made me more stressed up. blaming me this & that, like, whatever i do doesn't satisfy you enough.
i know that this always happens once a month & it'll drag till about 2 to 3 days. i'm used to it, actually. but not this time. this time...
i brokedown.
i cried.
i'm so stressed up.
i'm so down.
i have my own problems & i'm trying my best to cope up with it step by step. besides, i've been cheering up my other friends who are really in need. i really can't see them sad. when they're sad, i feel sad for them too. the very least thing i can do for them is to cheer them up & be there for them. sincerely. just gotta admit i'm too softhearted. i always put others first before myself, you see. *sigh*
i know that this always happens once a month & it'll drag till about 2 to 3 days. i'm used to it, actually. but not this time. this time...
i brokedown.
i cried.
i'm so stressed up.
i'm so down.
i have my own problems & i'm trying my best to cope up with it step by step. besides, i've been cheering up my other friends who are really in need. i really can't see them sad. when they're sad, i feel sad for them too. the very least thing i can do for them is to cheer them up & be there for them. sincerely. just gotta admit i'm too softhearted. i always put others first before myself, you see. *sigh*
i believe in karma. i really do. hopefully what goes around comes around...
anyways, i know you truly cared so much about me. i know you always worry about me. i know you love me so much. but, rest assured that i know how to take care of myself, apart from being so hard headed & always never wanna kalah-attitude when it comes to hot arguements between us.
hence, i'm turning 20 this year. (ohmygod~ the number 20 seems so big to me. so old! grrrr...) i'm proud to have you for all these years & i truly appreciate all the sacrifices you've done for me. on a lighter note, due to the potential that i have right now, i'm elated that i've already been given a great job in a design studio once i've graduated in my graphic design course next year in august. & i'll be learning interior design pretty pretty soon. so, in one & a half year's time, you don't have to give me those usual expenses to me anymore & it's my responsibility to take care of you.
just wanna say that,
anyways, i know you truly cared so much about me. i know you always worry about me. i know you love me so much. but, rest assured that i know how to take care of myself, apart from being so hard headed & always never wanna kalah-attitude when it comes to hot arguements between us.
hence, i'm turning 20 this year. (ohmygod~ the number 20 seems so big to me. so old! grrrr...) i'm proud to have you for all these years & i truly appreciate all the sacrifices you've done for me. on a lighter note, due to the potential that i have right now, i'm elated that i've already been given a great job in a design studio once i've graduated in my graphic design course next year in august. & i'll be learning interior design pretty pretty soon. so, in one & a half year's time, you don't have to give me those usual expenses to me anymore & it's my responsibility to take care of you.
just wanna say that,
"I LOVE YOU, MUM"
thanks for everything you've done for me
& i'm gonna make you proud
on top of that, diarrhoea hits me. simply because i drank Red Bull early in the morning & at that point of time, my stomach was totally empty. i've been visiting the toilet bowl for 1233466595466 times. okay, i lied. not that much, though.
zikky: eyyy. im eating sotong right now. & it reminds me of you. heehs :)
mas: lol! awww.. hey, you're eating me, lei. you soo jahat, lei!
this message i received from zikky really put up a smile on my face earlier on. thanks, friend. & he's the one who started calling me sotong head. chet!
there's sorrow hidden behind every smile & cheery side of me.
i need someone to be right beside me right now. yes, it's you i've been talking about. & i miss you so.
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11:31 PM as i woke up at 7.45am, my head was so darn heavy. i couldn't even lift it up. not only that, i also had a slight fever. looks like i really had to absent myself from school. so i went back to my lala land & i woke up at 2pm. but in between that time, people called n smsed me. ayo.. kacau jek la korang nie! chet.
as soon as i woke up, i cancelled my plan with the Pondok Devils since im not feeling well. but, as time passes by, i was so god damn bored, you know. so, i smsed Fik asking about his whereabouts. he told me that he & the rest were at the airport went for job hunting.
i met the Pondok Devils at town around 7.20pm. errr.. okay guys. sorry i was late. later then, Dil & Im went for a job interview at Heeren. they were given a piece of paper. you know what? in that particular paper, there's only a single question. a pathetic question:
as soon as i woke up, i cancelled my plan with the Pondok Devils since im not feeling well. but, as time passes by, i was so god damn bored, you know. so, i smsed Fik asking about his whereabouts. he told me that he & the rest were at the airport went for job hunting.
i met the Pondok Devils at town around 7.20pm. errr.. okay guys. sorry i was late. later then, Dil & Im went for a job interview at Heeren. they were given a piece of paper. you know what? in that particular paper, there's only a single question. a pathetic question:
"should cows wear bra?"
like, huh goggle! soalan cepu emas la ini. hohoho!! must write not more than 200 words. fikir ini literature, kah? tempat New Urban Male nampak sah jual-jual barang jek kan. ni, sampai tanya soalan merepek seh! as if you need to think out of the box & creativity in order to be a sales person.
once the both of them already cracked their brain & answered it, we went to Long Johns Silver over at Cineleasure for our dinner. ermm.. wokayy.. only Im & myself ordered the food. the rest? no money! so, i've decided to buy a Combo 1 meal for them. eeyea, 5 person sharing a meal. tsktsk.. ok, la horh. at least they eat, right. kesian lah tengok korang sekalian tak makan, beh tengok jek orang lain makan. sucha poor thing, right?? as for me & Im, of course, we ordered our own meal. in the end, i donated half of my fries & 1 of my chicken to them. kesian benor la, tengok korang makan peh gelojoh. heehee...
once the both of them already cracked their brain & answered it, we went to Long Johns Silver over at Cineleasure for our dinner. ermm.. wokayy.. only Im & myself ordered the food. the rest? no money! so, i've decided to buy a Combo 1 meal for them. eeyea, 5 person sharing a meal. tsktsk.. ok, la horh. at least they eat, right. kesian lah tengok korang sekalian tak makan, beh tengok jek orang lain makan. sucha poor thing, right?? as for me & Im, of course, we ordered our own meal. in the end, i donated half of my fries & 1 of my chicken to them. kesian benor la, tengok korang makan peh gelojoh. heehee...
they keep on saying i have the evil face specially if i don't smile. like this one.
stop it, la korang!
then, we went back to Heeren since it's time for Dil & Im to have the interview. to kill time, we camwhored.
Im, Dil, ME!, Fik & cuzzyAcap
ermm.. Yeti & his gf are not in these pictures.
the Yeti's are not included; sold separately.
nyaaahahahahaha~! jahatnyer aku..
before we're off to the mrt, i stopped by at 7-11 to grab a chocolate myself & for them. unfortunately, no chocolates were found!! grrrr... so, i just grabbed 2 mentos; 1 for myself & the other one, for them to share among themselves. pandai-pandai korang lah ye, share meng-share. oh, ya. CuteeBOY was not with us since he's out with his gal friend to Vivo City. boohoo... nyek!!
Fydah, i'm done with your blogskin. i hope you like it, gf! don't sad-sad, kays. i'm here for you. Luke will be back from camp in 9 days time. now time flies very fast. hold on, aye. *hugs*
psst~! if guys can have fun, girls can have DOUBLE the fun. *winks* so girls, try not to sulk everytime. & im trying... =)
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5:07 AM firstly, let me update you guys about the bloggers meet up. hohoho! let's rewind back to last friday...
at 2pm, i met up Fydah at Bugis & we headed to Marina Square to have our lunch. BK was my choice since it's been sucha long time i didn't bite those junk food. we pour out our stories to each other like there's no tomorrow. after which, we met Irah at City Hall mrt station as she's passing me the Guess watch i bought from her. thanks alot, gf~! i truly love it..
pretty, right? i'm soo in love with it...
okay, let's get back on track. anyways, where was i? hmm.. oh ya! Fydah & myself chilled at Coffeebean over at Takashimaya just to kill our time till 6pm as that's the time for the bloggers meet up. our heartbeat ratings were so high at that point of time, right gf? as if we're meeting up guys like that. chet! but at 5.20pm, Irah joined us too after spending her time with her bf. *winks*
since the bloggers were late, the three of us decided to go down to Far East Plaza because i was craving for Fried Mars Bar. as usual, the queue was darn long. but, i sacrificed myself to join the queue just to get that addiction of mine. nyekk!!=P Irah & Fydah bought the Triple C. but, but.. it doesn't taste good. bluerghh!! people out there, Fried Mars Bar is the best la. terplantingggg, you know! nyaaahaha!!
while waiting, Shab, Aisha & her bf came. Sayuri was caught up with her work & met her up later. so, hello my new gfs!!! i was so excited upon seeing all of them, la.
Irah, Fydah & me. my face here looks like bapuk lei!!! ggrrr...
Shab, Sayuri & Aisha
US; the bloggers. my new gfs~! =D
& so, we camwhored. hohoho!!
& so, we camwhored. hohoho!!
bottomline, i did have fun. we'll meet up again on our next outing, kays? love you all, lah!! *huggyz&muackyz*
sadly, Dirah couldn't make it due to some circumstances. how we wished you were there, gf. remember horh, you must go for the sentosa outing on 3rd february with us tau. it's a must! if you don't go, i spank your butt can?? *grins*
ooh ya! fyi, Shab & Dirah are my ex primary schoolmates. right, girls? hohoho!
yesterday, i went out with cuzzyAcap & Dil. we settled our dinner at Lucky Plaza since i was craving for ayam penyet. eeyea, it's my treat, guys. enjoy-enjoy, shake-shake horh... while i was indulging that heavenly ayam penyet, CuteeBOY messaged me that he's on the way to meet me up.
actually, both me & him were supposedly to have a date earlier on. but he told me that he's very tired & darn sleepy after helping out his cousins shifting all the stuffs. so, i asked him to rest at home. so, the date has been cancelled. but, i was shocked enough that he's meeting me up.
after dinner, met up CuteeBOY & we headed to Kopitiam right beside the Youth Park since CuteeBOY was hungry. his cuzzyWandy joined us, too. CuteeBOY complained every now & then thats he's so tired & sleepy. yes, he really looked haggard enough with his red eyes. ayo, i told you to rest at home but you still meet me up. degil horh, ada batu duduk dalam otak you, kah? *giggles* but anyways, thanks for your sacrifice, b.
by 9pm, we chilled at Cineleasure since it's drizzling. on my way to Cineleasure, someone messaged me saying that she saw me. it was Dirah! what else, i called her up, la!! so excited, horh. heeheehee... but not fair lei. you saw me, but i didn't see you! =P
later then, Fik joined us. dia datang jek, kecoh. macam2 joke korang ada. lau the pondok devilz ni dah combine, habis la perut aku pecah. penat aku ketawa dibuatnyer.. hohoho! by 10pm, all of us made our way home.
to Luke, don't worry cuzzy. i'll take real good care of your gf while you're away for NS. so, while you're away, Fydah is now mine, la horh!! nyaahaha~!! don't think too much. i'll try my very best to be there for Fydah. you know what? you should be lucky enough to have a sweet, beautiful & kind hearted gf like her. so please, don't make her sad lei. now she's more like a sister to me, you know. she sad, i also sad lorh. & i'm happy enough to have found her. all thanks to you, Luke! have fun serving NS la horh.. hurhurhurr! just remember that, your gf will always be waiting for you & loves you so much.
to Dil, hang on there real tight. i know it is hard for you. =( whatever it is, cheer up & don't think too much. i know how you feel right now. *sigh* make yourself busy, do all those things that you enjoy most. cheer up, ok?
chocolates will be up for grabs soon. & these chocolates are meant for those who are really really there for me when i'm down. you know who you are la horh, thanks so much!
psst~! cuzzyStardom, i wanna have a date with you. i miss you already even though we chat everyday at MSN, lei...
i'm happy to receive a warm big hug from you. hopefully things will be fine. i'm not gonna deny that i'm in love with you.
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3:31 PM having restless nights. couldn't even get myself to sleep. alot of things has been running through my mind for the past week. feels that it gets worse as days pass by.
even my lecturer said that i looked haggard; dark eyebags show right below my eyes & my face is pale. a zombie. that should describe me perfectly, isn't it? *sigh* i couldn't even think properly. as in, totally. sometimes. there are times that i'm feeling so down, & another minute im going craaaazy. bonkerz, mah.. chet~!
even my lecturer said that i looked haggard; dark eyebags show right below my eyes & my face is pale. a zombie. that should describe me perfectly, isn't it? *sigh* i couldn't even think properly. as in, totally. sometimes. there are times that i'm feeling so down, & another minute im going craaaazy. bonkerz, mah.. chet~!
one more thing, i've a problem with friendster. sometimes i couldn't even access to my account. it's sooo superrrrr pathetic. irritating, you know. grrrr....!!!
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
projects. projects. projects. projects.
yes, my space has been filled up with tonnes of projects. furthermore, next friday is the last day of my first module. time do flies darn fast. *shakes head* i really gotta concentrate on these projects because it's considered as a major exam for module 1.
anyways, to some of my friends out there, if i cancelled our plans within the very last minute, i would like to apologise to you all. i really have to concentrate with my projects. but i'll try my very best to make it, aye. hope you all understand. no worries, i'll make it up to you guys by the end of next week.
today, i mean, now, is CuteeBOY's first bike practical at Ubi & he just called me since he's having his break. all the best, kudut...
on a lighter note, im glad that i've found new girlfriends. not to mention, pretty pretty nice girlfriends! *grins*
i'm a uber happy girl!
girls, you know who you are, horh. teehee..
i love you all, lah~!
anyways, to some of my friends out there, if i cancelled our plans within the very last minute, i would like to apologise to you all. i really have to concentrate with my projects. but i'll try my very best to make it, aye. hope you all understand. no worries, i'll make it up to you guys by the end of next week.
today, i mean, now, is CuteeBOY's first bike practical at Ubi & he just called me since he's having his break. all the best, kudut...
on a lighter note, im glad that i've found new girlfriends. not to mention, pretty pretty nice girlfriends! *grins*
i'm a uber happy girl!
girls, you know who you are, horh. teehee..
i love you all, lah~!
trying real hard to cheer myself up.
people, fill me in.
entertain me.
oohhh, sucha random entry. pfft~!
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11:05 PM yesterday night, i celebrated CuteeBOY's birthday with his family. we had dinner at Chai Chee Seafood Restaurant. well, late dinner i supposed because we reached there around 9.20pm. but, thanks so much for the delicious food, it made my tummy sooo buncit~! chet.
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Nike watch.
Zara polo t.
Ferrero Roche chocolate.
Birthday card.
these are the presents from me to him.
he opened the presents infront of us while waiting for the food to be served. the first thing he grab was the 'most important' present - the Nike watch. yes, he was shocked enough. anyways, he really needs a new watch. the old watch was totally pathetic, i tell you or should i say, dead? but he still wears it even though its un-workable. so, eeyea. that's the story of theWatch. hah. okay, then, he instantly replaced his old watch with the new one.
showcasing the presents.
see, he wore the watch that i gave him as soon as he opened the gift.
err... where's the polo t, b?
me with his family after filling up our grumbling stomachs.
took a snap together before we call it a day. or issit night? grrr....
glad that you like the presents. remember, take real good care of the watch!
earlier on, i had my driving lesson. it went smoothly after having the 1 week 'off'. just learned how to park the car after having a ride around ubi. okay, gotta admit. it's kinda hard though. pfft!! but, okay la i guess. after a half hour session of parking, i drove to Tampines since my instructor gotta pick up a new student.
so, i dropped off at Tampines & met up cuzzyStardom. basically, we just chilled & went wireless surfing using her lappy toppy over at Downtown East McCafe. both of us were kinda pissed off with the flies. eeyea, there were flies everywhere even though it's air conditioned, you see. grrr.... but they won't stop us with our plans. we shared problems, blog hopped, viewing other people's friendster profile & all. so much laughters filled the not so-many people in the McCafe.
the hot chocolate for myself. nice, right?
us surfing the internet. see how engrossed we are.
cousinity love.
<3
& we had our dinner at Subway. yes yes indeed, Eat Fresh! =P
a great day spent with the loved one.
much love...
a great day spent with the loved one.
much love...
a problem ends. & a new one comes along.
ohh. sucha never-ending.
just hate this kinda feeling.
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8:58 PM 
at last, the day you've been waiting for has arrived & eeyea, you're already 18...
since you've reached this legal age, you must know that you'll be going through dozens of obstacles in this life - it's tough; it ain't easy. hope you're matured enough to know what's right & what's wrong. think of you future, too. whatever it is, you've gotta stay strong. one more thing, enjoy doesn't last forever, it's only temporary...
no matter what, we'll go through this thick & thin together. the fact is, we gotta have faith. just wanna let you know that i love you so much. perhaps, you're my other half. i'll be there for you whenever you're in need.
last but not least,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, my love!
.love you.
*huggyz&muackyz*
p/s: stabilised. & i miss you so much. can't wait for this saturday's outing...
to all the taggers, thanks so much for all the support you've given me.
to all my cousins & friends who've been there for me when im totally down, im glad enough to have found you guys.
i truly appreciate it, you guys. may our friendship stay strong!
love y'all!!
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2:07 AM you read my blog & you apologised to me. we've been negotiating this matter yesterday & you truly agreed to it. but still, you went to club to celebrate this thing called the2007countdown. right now you're in the club having fun while i'm sitting in front of this computer, just blogging away & keeps on thinking of you.
what is this? we've negotiate regarding this matter & is this what you called negotiate in the first place?
if you really love me & care for me, perhaps, think of how i would feel, you shouldn't have gone clubbing. you should've remembered the negotiation we had earlier on. looks like, you're only thinking the needs for youself. hunger for fun & enjoyment. or should i say, ego?
what is this? we've negotiate regarding this matter & is this what you called negotiate in the first place?
if you really love me & care for me, perhaps, think of how i would feel, you shouldn't have gone clubbing. you should've remembered the negotiation we had earlier on. looks like, you're only thinking the needs for youself. hunger for fun & enjoyment. or should i say, ego?
biasalah, budak baru nak menaik. macam gini lah perangai dia.
i guess you really have a pea brain. probably you don't have brains to think. maybe you don't think of how i feel. all you think is enjoyenjoyenjoy. having fun. everytime i'm the one who must've give in to you, i'm just letting you go to clubs & all. but sometimes, i said yes half-heartedly. i've gotta admit, i am too soft-hearted. on the other hand, there are times that i'm being sarcastic towards you, & even do not have the mood out of a sudden. don't you think that i had these feelings & showing them to you for fun?
i've given you the freedom, so you yourself gotta know your own limits. i thought i could trust you on this. but i was totally wrong. you took advantage of it, don't you know that?
you've broken my heart. you knew how hard i was in my past relationship. you promised me to take real good care of me & you won't let the same things happen again. so, breaking my heart silently like this is not stated in your dictionary is it? you knew i've had enough of getting hurt. yet, you've hurt me. extremely. you've broken your promise. i never expect that this could happen to me because i trust you. i'm sucha fool...
i brokedown earlier on. i cried. yes yes, i really cried. it's been a long time i didn't shed my tears. keeping all my true feelings to myself. thanks to my precious blog for giving me the chance of expressing my own thoughts & feelings. not only that, even my cuzzyStardom, cuzzyNadgig & my friends - ifah, zabuza, shah, irah, sweety, atai & pan chen. thanks for listening to my problems, giving me support & good advises, i truly appreciate it well enough. thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks! glad to have found people like you guys.
know what? i still love you. but... i feel like giving up on you. i can't help it anymore. i don't want to have this feeling no more. i've had enough. i am.
*sigh* i don't know. my mind is in a haywired situation right now. anger. disappointments. maybe i need some time to be alone. i hate this kinda feeling. im feeling so darn weak. i'm trying my very best to survive in this so-called test. its so hard, though...
as for my ex, i really am elated to hear that you've attached. glad that she wants you to be part of her life. i hope you take care of her really good. let me warn you, i don't want her to suffer like how i suffered by tolerating your attitudes and all. don't treat her like how you treated me before. love her whole-heartedly & don't let the ego controls you. lastly, congratz to you for owning the bike license & hooray to your new bike. all the best, ex-y!
& ya, wishing you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR. may you guys have a good start & a fruitful year.
as for me, im starting this 2007 so sucky-ly...
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